Today I have group. We continue to make strategy's about how to deal with situations as they will occur and ways to keep healthy. Next week is every ones quit date. I can feel how nervous people are. There really is a lot of anticipation and stress, but truly in the end that's not the hard part. It takes more self will to work through the cravings and breaking habits long established over time then that moment you decided to stop. Actually it feels good to kick Nick out of the house.... the bastard. Tobacco addiction didn't occur overnight and it can't be broken overnight, which is why we have to be patient with ourselves and let new habits unfold and take hold while old ones fade away. Speaking of habits, unbelievably on Monday I raced out the door without my patch on. I had recently stepped down to a lower dose patch and was feeling OK about this development when halfway through my day I had a strong urge followed by a habitual pat. Pat my left arm , pat my right arm, pat my left leg, my right leg....... shit! I forget to put it on. I managed to get one and put it on half way through the day which got me through the early evening, the roughest part of my day in terms of triggers and cravings. Tuesday I thought I might try again to see how long I could go without wearing a patch. Straight though the day. Not bad. Wednesday and Thursday I bit the bullet and just stopped wearing one. Thursday felt..... not half bad.
I'm having some interesting little side effects. Yes I've gained some weight and I'm sleeping like a rock at night but during the day how do I put this delicately.... I'm a bit windy. Well hopefully this will pass too, onward and upward.
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